The answer to many of the problems you face, big problems, nagging issues and pain points you've had for years, is passionate pursuit of the living God.
Passionate pursuit of God will change you in wonderful ways. God invites us into relationship. If we pursue him with all our heart, soul, mind and strength, he will love us in ways we can't even imagine. 2 Corinthians 3:18 in the expanded Bible explains the process and we all with unveiled face continually seeing as in a mirror, the glory of the Lord are progressively being transformed into his image.
From one degree of glory to even more glory which comes from the Lord who is the Spirit. We become like those we spend time with. As we spend time with God, he transforms us to be like him. And a lot of the problems we have, the insecurity and emotional wounds we've had since we were young will suddenly be healed.
I've been in anointed worship times in church when suddenly I became aware of something falling off of me. Something bad. Sometimes I know what God just lovingly removed. He tells me. Sometimes I don't know. But those things are gone, removed by God. What was I doing? I was passionately pursuing him in worship.
Our fears will fade as the fire of God's love in and through us grows hotter. Secret sins will fade into our past, eclipse by the splendor of being loved, really loved by God. Distractions and busyness will no longer appeal to you.
Turn your eyes upon Jesus. Look full in his wonderful face, and the things of earth will go strangely dim in the light of his glory and grace.
Helen Lemmel
Turn your eyes upon Jesus: Ungodly thoughts and twisted beliefs will somehow no longer find space in our minds. God's love renews our minds. Being loved and learning to love transforms us into new creatures by changing the way we think. See Romans 12:2 Love God's supernatural agape Love does all these things.
Love heals, love restores, love protects, love hopes, it believes, and it expects the best of others and of ourselves. Love perseveres. Love doesn't give up on people. Love inspires us to not give up on ourselves. Love never fails. See 1 Corinthians 13's description of agape. God's unconditional love which Holy Spirit forms in us.