I was an alcoholic and I was getting worse. I was having blackouts. It was affecting my work as a lawyer. Then, through a series of strange circumstances, God got through to me and I gave him my life. But I was desperately afraid I'd go back to drinking. So I prayed.
A radical prayer. I asked God if I could work for him full time so I would have time to get to know Him. Somehow. I believed that if I had a relationship with Jesus, a real relationship, that I would never go back into my old alcoholic life. God sent me to China.
I prayed, and that was his answer. It's a long story. For another time, a Christian organization placed me in China, teaching law and business at a university. I was isolated at a small college on the outskirts of Beijing. I was alone a lot. There was no tv, unless you like crop reports and the Chinese government version of the News.
It was 1989, long before cell phones, etc. I passionately pursued relationship with Jesus.
Seek him with all your heart and you too will find Him. I went to China to find Jesus. I went to develop a relationship with him and with Father God. I left everything behind because in my circumstance, that was what I felt I had to do. That was the best decision I've made in my Christian life.
I had awesome experiences with Jesus in Beijing, and that began a lifelong relationship. Love is personal. Love isn't having correct information or a right opinion. Love. Love is not theology. Right. Believing theology is important, but love is the greatest thing.
It's way past knowledge. David loved God. He knew him. David passionately pursued God
Psalm 42:1
As the deer pants for streams of water, so my soul pants for you, my God.
A.W. tozer writes. "the Psalms are David pursuing and finding God."
If you're looking for a relationship with God, the Psalms are a great place to start.