I'd been an alcoholic for 10 years when I was born again and that's exactly how I felt. I was ashamed of my outbursts of anger, the lust I continued to struggle with. I was discovering just how selfish I had become and I really wanted to get drunk.
How could God ever use me? John 10:10 Jesus said, the thief Satan comes only in order to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they that's you and I may have and enjoy life and have it in abundance to the full till it overflows." 1 John 3:8 "The son of God appeared for this purpose to destroy the works of the devil."
Pastor Jack Hayford continues: "The Lord who saved you has a long term purpose for you. You will be moved from being marginalized in life to finding the central purpose of your life. You'll come to know that holy really means wholly. Whole completely restored. You're learning how God's restoration program is is included in his gift of redemption in Christ.
He regenerated you. He will restore you. Redemption includes a reborn spirit and a restored soul. A certain recovery of all that's been stolen in the past."
You see, only you can stop God's plan for your life. If you get discouraged and quit, Satan wins. Your heart's desire is the only thing that will limit you.
Are you willing to do whatever God wants you to do? Is your heart set to please God in the time that you have left on the earth?